Reaction and Curious Interaction

Today’s new moon in Aquarius  is the beginning of the Chinese New Year, The Fire Monkey  

Playful times ahead!  Are you ready to fly?  Through the air on a magic carpet ride?  Burning is the carpet, smoldering at the seams…or so it seems….but do you really know?  Is the fire eating the carpet or or the carpet eating the fire?  And where the heck you are going anyhow?
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I was walking this morning, reflecting on all of the changes and challenges that have persistently whispered, yelled and shaken me into acceptance of life beyond the limited data that I call reality.

Different memories come to my mind. Large range of emotions flood me, depending on the memory.  Many of them evoke sadness and loss, frustration and rejection, resignation and acceptance.  Many evoke glee and  appreciation,  forgiveness and determination to keep opening, regardless of the risks.

Coming to the bone realization of reaction and interaction.  

Many life responses come from habituated reactions to learned protocols of how to survive within the group.  Individuals need to figure out these “codes of behavior” very young.  We want and need our families to accept us, otherwise we perish.  We learn to interact from a place of obedience rather than a natural response from the soul.

My personal journey has been highly reactionary to environments that value hierarchical power over personal expression.  I was heartbroken when forced to accept a God separate from me.  That vibrant, wild child that I was, was not acceptable in the eyes of Love.  Wow…..what a robbery of the soul!

Memories become the stories of our lineages.  Our bodies begin to take on the shape of our primary and secondary caregivers.  Experiences help blue print our energy field.  Energy is the skeleton of life and the physical world is the flesh.  In the Chinese system of energy mapping, each experience gets filed away by a natural intelligence of which the meridian system is a mappable part of.  Worry for example, is associated with the stomach, grief with the lung meridian and so on.  The body has an intimate relationship with unseen energy fields.  This may be why a certain experience evokes a particular reaction for people.  There are worlds and worlds the seen world knows nothing about but is still intimately connected to.

My studies of animism as a spiritual practice, energy mapping and physical theater have culminated into an understanding of how habituated reactions are the key to a golden universe of curious interactions.  Tracking reaction by slowing down the response helps to enter the world of curious interaction.  When things travel with the same intensity as a reaction only much much slower, the field of awareness simultaneously increases as well.  Think of a replay in the sports world.  Certain plays are slowed way down to watch the blow by blow of a previous high speed event.  Millions of dollars depend on that technology within the sports world.

Slowing down a reaction.

Slow motion is great way to break up a reactionary response to a passion.  Choose a memory that is tender, but not emotionally paralyzing.  Move the memory by connecting a very slow breath pattern with the image.  After you synced these, add a body movement.  Trust your first impulse.  Breath moves the image through the body as you surround yourself with complete love and compassion.  Allow the feeling to be embraced by your current mind focus of love and light.  If the experience leads you into more spontaneous movement, take it into a dance.  Let the memory evolve into an offering that you give to the parts of your body that’s been holding that memory for you.  Body parts are some of the best audiences we can ask for!

This exercise takes practice.  If you choose a memory that is still highly reactionary, it may be difficult move it through and could leave you feeling frustrated or depleted.  Give yourself the respect of a simple memory.  Ultimately we all are finding ways to take care of the reactionary nature.   The more love we add, the more light we become.

This year of the Fire Monkey is great time to liberate the playful free soul that we are all born with.  Re patterning  trauma is a great job for the artist.  It’s a territory for soul development and cultural liberation.

Sat Nam and Happy New Year!







“All I know for sure is that dreams are the pictures of states wanting to turn into processes.  Dreams are maps of the beginning of an otherwise unchartered trip into the unknown.  They are pictures of the unknown which appear in many channels.  Because process work is body-oriented, I put a stress upon feelings, but dreams are not pictures of just feelings; they are pictures of the way the unknown is showing itself in a given moment.”

Arnold Mindell

Some Aboriginal peoples describe Dreaming in terms of the dark side of the moon.  When the moon is not quite full, you see its bright, illuminated side.  You might call it a half moon.  But if you look closely on a clear evening, you can see the dark side, silently shimmering next to the more apparent bright side.  Like me, most people focus only on the bright side and miss the moon’s dark face, that is, the Dreaming reality.
The bright side is only that portion of the whole moon that is illuminated.  Focusing only on the bright side of the moon and ignoring the dark side might easily make you think that dark side does not exist, while in fact we need the dark side to represent the whole moon.
The same is true for everything you see.  If you only focus on everyday reality, you neglect the Dreaming.  According to Aboriginal thinking, the Dreaming is the basic substance of the material world.  The Dreaming gives objects the energy that attracts and repels your attention.  If you neglect the Dreaming, you devalue the material environment because you ignore its basis and thus miss half of life.
The power of  the Dreaming is right here, behind the everyday world, as part of every object, the part you sometimes forget to notice.  From the Aboriginal perspective, everyday reality is the bright side of the moon pointing to the power of Dreaming, the moon’s dark side.
In spite of my interest and long background in therapy, dreams, and shamanism, I had unconsciously assumed that the busy city and tall buildings killed the Dreaming.  That is probably why, whenever possible, I escaped to the countryside in search of Nature’s pristine powers.
Uncle Lewis showed me that the city’s reality exists because of the Dreaming.  Without it, nothing would be.  Dreaming is the energy behind everything; it is the life force of all living beings, the power of trees and plants, and the powers of motors, business, and financial centers.
An artist sense the Dreaming in the canvas, paper, and stone and knows that everyday reality is not only concrete.  Leonardo da Vinci wrote that artists should look into peeling plaster walls until they can see images emerging from the shapes of the plaster.  Similarly, Michelangelo called sculpting a processs of bringing out the form that already exists inside the stone.  Artists and aboriginal peoples have developed the ability to see the Dreaming, that is, the power behind the figures you see in your nighttime dreams and everyday reality

Arnold Mindell

Source: Dreaming While Awake

Contributed by: Bird

  • When the storm passes, what will you be holding?

    A child washes up to shore,

    Silent, motionless, cold from within.

    A Child Washes Up To Shore.

    Flipping, Flapping, Lapping Limply



    Did you hear that?

    Did you see that!!

    (Did we do that….)

    A child washes up to shore….


    As I write this blog, trying to find words for the devastation happening in the world right now, I find myself intellectually impotent.  How can words do justice to the atrocities being inflicted upon the most innocent of life?

    Recently I wrote a poem about horror, in response to a good friend’s suicide.  Her torment was the result of Klonopin withdrawal.  A drug considered by some, the most lethal drug on the pharmaceutical market. Oxytocin is considered number two.

    Certainly I can continue with the topic of horror, as we witness 1000’s of refugees drowning on the edge of Europe, in boats that have no land that will accept them. Insane and unfathomable, yet it has happened over and over again in the course of recorded humanity.

    When I try to make sense of life’s tragedies and our responses to them,  I turn to energy and the field of relationships and archetypes.  They are main players in the shaping of what we call reality.  They are the structure that the 5 senses develop and grow from.  The world before matter.

    Polarity and Movement

    When energy flows freely OxO:

     It makes happy figure 8’s all over the place.  Big and small, up and down, wild and calm.  It’s a figure 8 world just beyond our 5 senses horizon.  The figure 8’s are not only happy, they are equally balanced and centered on both sides, constantly responding to the ebb and flow of polarity.

    When energy is out of balance O>o

     When not imbalance, the 8 becomes lopsided, causing a change in the flow of energy going through it. One side ends up contracted and the other expanded. The connection at the center of the X becomes distorted. If balance doesn’t return, the 8 becomes sick, distorted, unable to connect with the other 8’s that have it’s same rhythms.

    Albert Einstein’s Theory of Relativity. 

    If we could see in radio waves, the world would look like a sea of colorful jelly,  atoms and molecules vibrating at different rhythms and speeds.  The connections  between them are fluid and moving all of the time. The faster the vibration and frequency of energy, the less we are able to detect it with our 5 senses.  The different rhythms create a different color and sound.  The atom takes on the form of the vibration and sound.  Science has developed many types of instruments to measure the movement of life that’s beyond our ability to tangibly understand it.

    Energetically, we feel the essence of another person  because we are intimately connected to them through the Theory of Relativity and basic Natural Laws of the Universe.  Potentially, we share an axis with the person, place or thing that stirs our inner movement. We are one half of a bulbous number 8.  The level of separation happens in the physical world, where we  experience  life as solid matter. You are you, I am me, a table is a table, etc.  We have been taught to measure everything through the tangible world of separation.  But that is only one way of experiencing life. It is the outward manifestation of thought, belief, energetic patterning of consciousness.

    The center of the axis o<O>o

    If follow the central axis to it’s center, we never get there. The central core is a much higher frequency than the matter.  The farther you get from the core, the more solidified energy becomes.  If the outward movement of energy never comes back to the center, it loses it’s relationship to it’s core power and may release its grip and become absorbed in another figure 8 rhythm surrounding it.  Nassim Haramein talks about this beautifully through his incredible work on the resonance project.

    How does this relate to the world around us?  When power is not balanced, we end up in power struggles between the two sides of the figure 8. What was once “we” becomes  “us and them”.  The central axis, the joining force has been compromised. We lose connection with where we came from and where we are going.  Our point of reference can become so distorted that we make enemies of children.  We forget our basic humanity. We start emanating from the point of contraction, forgetting the much larger picture of who we are.  The scar becomes the point of reference in which all of our decisions are based on.

    How does it relate to the world within us?  Unbalanced energy effects us personally by how we look at the world.  Either we don’t feel like we have any power to change our lives or we feel more powerful and important than the one suffering.  We give our power over to an outside source, such as addictions.  We start sourcing power from outside ourselves, forgetting our regenerative connection to our own core axis.

    The consequences of inequity between both sides of the figure 8 are evident all around us and within us.  It is our opportunity to question the walls of separation.  And to search for that which leads us back to the center.

    I will be writing more on these very basic principles that can be so illusive to understand….yet, they are principles the simplest among us get so easily. IT’S TIME FOR PEACE.


    A Response to Suicide


    How you delight in devastation!  Hungry the as hyena,  hovering on the edge of sorrow, waiting to devour the soul’s most sacred knowing.

    As I stand in the midst of horror’s dark shadow,
    I start singing,
    singing sweetly to it’s essence.
    I begin a hypnotic whisper into it’s earlessness,
    “Come to me, you horrific force.
    Enter my aura and enter your oblivion.
    I will devour you like the shadow that you are.
    I will eat your soullessness with the fiercest fire
    of my deepest dream.”


    You will not escape the process of awakening!
    I will hunt you down as you have hunted and
    destroyed the tenderest of lilies. I will relish the foul
    smell of your decayed consciousness will sheer delight.
    I will tear at your atrocities with the magnified force
    of the humanity you have stolen from the hearts of the innocent.

    No longer will I be an amplification of your devastation,
    For I no longer fear you.
    You come near me and you will be transformed.
    Come and experience true love….
    Come and know what real power is.

    Taste the nectar of real power.
    The power of the humming bird.
    The power of the vulture.
    The power of the life giving force
    of a woman who knows better.


    The Butterfly Effect Continues

    The Butterfly Effect MichiganLife is a myriad of cycles layered on top of each other, interplaying and interacting with each other, dreaming and creating each other all of the time. Life is the world of our daily tasks and responsibilities as much as it is our deepest desires trying to manifest.

    So what? Why do we even bother to look at life as something to investigate? Why not keep the nose to the grindstone and focus only on the drive towards getting our fundamental needs met so we can go watch a movie with our friends or family? Isn’t that all there is?

    Ask that question to the small whisper of emotion that arises when you remember your childhood fantasy or dream that you have yet to return to. Ask the part of yourself that looks up at the night sky and wonders of what might exist between the twinkle of your soul and the twinkle of the stars.

    We are so much more than our basic identity.  We are energy in motion.
    We vibrate and move at specific frequencies that science is just beginning to be able to map and record. Just like water moving from one destination to another, we move and dance with a source of life much bigger than our little selves can understand. Yet, we know it intimately. We know it when we are moved by sources and events outside of ourselves. We want and need to know these bigger understandings of life, but we have learned to be afraid. “Stay small. Don’t reach for the stars. Stay alive.”

    Oh, but our soul needs to know itself!
    This is what the ancient sciences and mystical practices have been mapping out for centuries. It is a natural part of evolution to forget who we are. As natural as the return home.

    Science maps it while art and creativity moves it.
    This workshop combines the ancient science of astrology and Chinese Medicine with creative theater to initiate an awakening of a part of yourself ready to be uncovered.



    Colleen Lemma:

    Internationally renowned Angelic Astrologer and Spiritual Consultant








    Ramjeet Kaur:  

    Multimedia Artist with formal education in Energy Medicine and Community Payback Theater.  A visionary in the realm of Trance Portational Artistry.



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    Diane Call:  

    Certified Kundalini Yoga Instructor, Instructor in                                            Sourcework Theater

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    The Butterfly Effect

    The butterfly….that delicate creature that emerges from a state of total transformation.  It has no traits of its former caterpillar self.  It has taken the power of shapeshifting to a level worth looking at. When the caterpillar creates its transformation capsule, it does not die.  It dissolves.  The result….the deep mystery of the butterfly….

    The power of art is the ability to take a difficult, stuck situation and look at it from many different angels.  Should I add blue or yellow?  How would color change this life long difficulty for me? Or would writing “that one particular story” from the perspective of the red old couch in my family’s living room help me emerge my long latent life gifts?

    Art of various flavors and Energy Medicine Maps will be the core learning tools of the weekend.  Energy is life.  Life is built on specific relational patterns which are highly sensitive and intelligent.  Chinese and Yogic Practices have long developed understandings of life’s basic processes.

    This is the weekend…..guided by the power that draws you to come, by myself, Ramjeet Kaur and by the loving, powerful forces that bring this opportunity together……


    The Butterfly Effect

    Letting go of Manifestation and Deepening into Wisdom

    Fall is the time of reflection.  Summer is over and the season turns inward, giving one last expression of itself through the falling of leaves and the harvest of the garden.  It is a time when we remember our impermanence.  Everything must return to the source of creation.  Like the leaves of a tree, we give back to the earth all the abundance expressed in our lives.  We keep the jewels of lessons learned and the wisdom of experience.

    It’s the time of the great let go to the worlds we do not see.  It can be a scary time if we have not made peace with our past.  Hence the creation of the Halloween, in the western world.  Letting go is a healthy and natural process.  When we hang on to old ideas, possessions, people that no longer serve our evolutionary process, we become imbalanced energetically and physically.  We develop sickness or become “haunted” by the past. Fall is the time to do ancestral work.  To forgive anything that our ancestors did not get to complete in their life cycle.

    Hoarding is one of the many signs of metal imbalance.  Either we fear the new will never come or we fear the new that is coming.  If we do not value the inner qualities of who we are, we will try to satisfy them from external resources.  As we see in our world, this creates imbalance in the entire system.  The new needs the refuse of past, otherwise it carries that refuse into the emerging cycle and poisons it.

    The is the time of honoring that which has come before.  Giving respect to our selves and to that which we do not understand.  It reminds us of our interconnectedness, or it haunts us in our present.  We can work with the metal element in many ways.  Grief work, energetics, artistic expression are useful ways to honor the process that is passing.  Below is an example of working artistically with the metal element through movement, sound and memory.

    Sacred Healing Arts And Global Activism